a FAT girl's diary.

Hello my loyal readers, I'M BREATHING ! It's been a really long(with a capital L) time since I last blogged! I missed blah-blahing about everyday life. I missed vomiting my heart out to this lifeless monitor screen in front of me. I missed hearing the tap taps of my fingers going non-stop on my black glossy(it is glossy I don't care) keyboard. I missed posting random videos, songs etc to express myself because those emotions are not best expressed in words. And most importantly, I miss U . Nope, stop wondering who U is, because it's U . Stop cracking your head now. There's no other U besides U. Not convinced? Who is that staring at the computer screen reading this right now? U U U ain't I right? I really do miss U lots. AND NOW IM BACK TO BLOG-BLAH BLAHing ....

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I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold l wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul I know that you are something special To you I'd be, always faithful I want to be what you always needed Then I hope you'll see the heart in me I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul... You might need time to think it over But I'm just fine, moving forward I'll ease your mind If you give me the chance I will never make you cry, c`mon lets try I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go

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This is addictive.

Look at how he dances! SUPER CUTE!!!!!

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hey guys, i really have no time for everything. whatever happens to taking in the scent of roses and slowing down the walk of life? this cant be true. fast enough, i might be dying before i even know it. just let me buy a day worth of time to enjoy myself and find back the joys of living. and breathing.

Look at me, I will never pass for a perfect bride, or a perfect daughter. Can it be, I'm not meant to play this part? Now I see, That if I were truly to be myself, I would break my family's heart. Who is that girl I see Staring straight, back at me Why is my reflection someone I don't know Somehow I cannot hide, who I am though I've tried. When will my reflection show who I am inside. When will my reflection show who I am inside.

If love is shelter, I'm gonna walk in the rain. If love is a red dress, well, dress me in rags. If love is Aces, give me the Jack.

i just cant take it anymore.......................................................................

I don't care that I have tons of hw due tomorrow. I don't care about the fact that I'm not starting on it. I don't care if my teacher scolds me tomorrow. I don't care if I need to copy pages of time magazine articles. I just don't care because I have recieved my first written warning for absence from NAPFA Intensive Training Programme. It says... "You have not attended the NAPFA Intensive Training Programme on which and which dates. You are to serve detention at the following dates. Any further absenteeism for the above programme will result in you having to serve at least 1 week of in-house suspension and you might not be eligible to sit for the year end examinations if you continue to be recalcitrant and truant from lessons. We hope that you will improve on your self-discipline and take this first warning seriously and attend all lessons." And then I still have to acknowlege. " I acknowledge that I was truant from the above mentioned lessons. I&

1. I don't like my home. 2. I hate the one and only one person who lives with me. 3. I make it a point to remember words that people have said to hurt me. To me, words that hurt are like wounds on a beating heart, they can be heeled but never totally. 4. I'm not a fan of living though I'm not looking forward to death. 5. And everything in between just stresses me out. 6. I hate myself for not being able to control my tears well. 7. When things go wrong, I secretly blame myself for them. (Is this a sign of depression? Someone enlighten me.) 8. I'm actually afraid of feeling nothing.( When I'm dead I suppose) 9. I believe in fairy tales. But I also believe they won't happen to me. 10. I love eating because it makes me feel in control.

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http://www.goodhousekeeping.com/health/advice/dropfive/

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You might actually think math is a guy's name.

1. Noodles! In many Asian countries, long noodles are eaten on New Year's Day in order to bring a long life. One catch: You can't break the noodle before it is all in your mouth. 2. Black-Eyed Peas! A common good luck food in the southern United States, black-eyed peas are thought to bring prosperity, especially when served with collard greens. 3. Cabbage! In Germany, Ireland, and parts of the United States, cabbage is associated with luck and fortune since it is green and resembles money. 4. Lentils! Thought to resemble coins, lentils are eaten throughout Italy for good fortune in the New Year. 5. Pomegranate! Long associated with abundance and fertility, pomegranates are eaten in Turkey and other Mediterranean countries for luck in the New Year. 6. Fish! In North America, Asia, and Europe, people eat fish to celebrate the new year. In some countries, people associate fish with moving forward into the new year since fish swim forward. Other people think fish symbolize abundanc